I am ThereAnd so the windI am There
blew underneath my feet Lifting me up as I Transcended across the field just to watch You pass however you turn your head and
Pretend not to notice
me.
What's ADream If It Isn't RealMy cold hands press against his bare shoulders as if to sayWhat's ADream If It Isn't Real
“hush”, and I lean in towards
him to gently kiss his lips.
I get up, and he utters, “Please... Please don’t leave me.” So hesitantly, I stay put.
“What shall become of us?”
Waiting for the hit that never comes I flinch instead receiving an unexpected
blast of warmth from his mouth.
Ten minutes later, I wake up and cry “why, why, why can this not
be real?” and I realize it was just
a dream.
What I Used, What I WantWhat I Used, What I WantWhat I Used, What I Want
I used to breathe, I used to bleed –
I used to feel – It once was real but now I feel nothing [it feels so surreal]
What once was well now is marred – scarred by an accident of selfishness and self-loathing [hatred I can’t repress]
But boy, I don’t use the knife for the paper –
I use it for my wrists [slit by slit]
the blood drips down and I laugh [mock me, mock me] this is what I get for being the way I am
I want to breathe
I want to bleed
I want to feel – What is real
and not
Everyday and All the TimeWhat God is there when he doesn't answer your prayers?Everyday and All the Time
I can't breathe –
Help me, help me, make it quick Come close came true and near my worst nightmare.
Mock me, shoot me, I’ll be okay I’m too numb, too numb to care either way. Ich komme nicht nach Hause I’m not coming home –
I feel so sick Especially that I’m in too thick so’s the knife –
Toxic.
Well, well, well I am sick in the head – partially – but it’s not just me [I think I’m going crazy]
In the words of imperfect time, I’d show a smile but
I used to write so much in this
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The Broken Angel, The Holder of Shattered Dreams
Locked in my cage of horrors, screaming, needing someone to hold......
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Dude, I'm so catching all your hundreds. IT'S A SIGN!
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Yey! Congrats on your first 100 pvs. Dunno if you keep track of those things, but a lot of people do, so, yush.
And hullo, btw.
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